There’s a famous quote by Albert Einstein that goes: “Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.” Can anyone reading this relate? I am applying it to the professional aspect of my life. For the past twenty-seven years I have worked in the social work profession. Starting out in 1993, fresh out of graduate school, I was so bright-eyed and bushy tailed and convinced I could change the world of the needy and downtrodden with my new found knowledge. But guess what? It wasn’t that simple surprise surprise. Not only did the multitude and complexity of those peoples’ lives present a challenge but the “system” threw a wrench in my plans also. I didn’t know about the bevy of regulations, laws and guidelines that would limit and box in my ability to give what I thought the people I was helping needed.
Fast forward to the present and I am burned out and wondering how I am going to make it until I can retire in four years and three months. Most people would be happy to say they only have that much time until retirement and I am. But right now it seems like an eternity. So where does Einstein’s quote play into this?
It applies because over the course of over nearly twenty-years, I have started new job after new job hoping that I would finally find the one where everything would fall into place. I began in my current position three months ago and the same feelings that I experienced for the two years prior and, then four years prior to that and the seven years prior to this and the three years prior to that have all come back. Just four years before retirement I have come to the conclusion that it’s time for a change. I long to move on to others endeavors such as writing for my blog, taking yoga teacher training and traveling. I want to buy a little house near a lake to use as a retreat to get away from the hustle and bustle of large numbers of people and traffic. I want to be able to study the Bible, pray, meditate and journal at will. But I guess these will have to wait for now, although I can engage in these interests on a smaller scale. So, I will continue to work and do my very best to help those I serve.
I hope in saying all this that you won’t get caught in the same insanity I have. You see, deep down inside of me I knew I should go for another career twenty years ago. But I was afraid, felt that I would be giving up if I didn’t continue and talked myself out of it with many other excuses. But it is okay because I know the path ahead is bright and ripe with new opportunities and choices and there’s nothing insane about that. But most importantly, I feel the Lord’s hand guiding me toward this new life. I am not afraid.